The distant growl,
Is an all too familiar sound.
The feeling of weekness,
Once again brings you to the ground.
The discrase of looking bad,
Is just too hard to take.
Everything looks so wonderful,
But you have to stay away.
Beauty is a privilage,
Something everyone must earn.
It is not for everyone;
If you could only learn.
Everything turns black,
As you start to fade away;
As you're lying on the ground,
Wishing you could change;
The overwelming feeling,
Comes over your body again.
Hunger
I think I say the things I feel,
To make my emotions all that clearer.
I am hidden in the dark,
With a blood covered knife in hand.
The pain drips from my face;
Just as it had all began.
Hidden from the world,
My face as pale as snow;
I walk into the outside,
To let my beauty glow.
Once again I am shoved back,
And the door slams in my face;
The world I once loved,
Has taken my beauty and grace.
My one last hope,
Still held in hand;
As I raise it high above.
I shout to the world,
As I take my own;
"It's over;
You have finally won!"
Can you feel my tears?
Can you hear my pain?
As the ground in covered,
By the pooring rain.
The river flows;
Full of blood,
As I see your face,
Covered in mud.
I hold you close,
As you drift away;
And I wish to myself,
That you would stay.
I am alone,
My fears inside;
I kneel down,
And begin to cry.
No one can see my fears,
Or feel my pain.
Only you held me close,
On the worst of days.
Now never again,
Will you hold me close;
As I spred my arms,
And watch you float.
You tell me one thing...
But how do I know that it is true?
One day I heard something,
And I asked you about it;
And you said that it was wrong.
But who should I believe;
Why should I believe you?
You tell me you are my friend,
And you8 act all nice and kind;
But what do you do when I turn my back?
I can't read your mind!
So how about,
You stop playing games;
and tell me what is real.
Because I am sick of all your little games.
I want to see through your eyes,
And into your wonderous soal.
Because though those beauty filled eyes,
Everything lays unknown.
I am a child,
Hidden in the dark;
Unseen by the outside.
In wonder I walk,
Through the empty halls;
Looking at all the empty faces.
Blank stares;
Lost loves;
Forgotten dreams;
Emptiness inside.
Pain covered by uncaring,
In this forgotten world.
Blank sights and thoughts,
Are all I see,
In this black forgotten world,
As in me.
A change of pace for the human race,
As heaven has gone unknown.
An evil thing has changed the brains,
Of all that was pure and gold.
Angels crawl,
And demons fall;
Until all is dead and gone.
The fast all stive;
And the slow all dive,
Into the depths of the bottomless sea.
The world cries,
As evil flies.
When the Sun burns out,
And flames burst about;
From the darkend sky.
The devil will smile,
As the wolves all howl;
Children cry as the world dies.
Never again will the bright moon shine,
And the world wil cease to change.
Evil will speed,
Wthout a care or need;
And no one seems to care.
My dreams slow,
As the days g
The crowds all stilled,
As he lay there wept without a word.
And with that moment of sorrow,
Came a ray of joy,
For the lord had come;
In that baby boy.
After the day he died,
He came again,
And gave a speech none will soon forget.
"One day again I shall bless this earth,
I have proven this with my rebirth."
Everyone is to remember this day;
The day he came there was laughter and cheer,
The joy and pain,
The sound of the people as they caled his name.
Guards all waited for him to die;
The people all silent wondering why.
In the blink of an eye,
He was dead and gone;
Three days later he rose again.
And told his men that tho
I have never loved,
Anyone the way I love you;
I have never held,
Anyone the way I hold you.
Since the day we met,
And with all the time I have spent;
I now realize,
That nothing is ever truly true.
The sun will someday fail to rise,
And the Earth will someday fall;
But I know now,
That you will be here with me,
Through it all.
Every moment of everyday,
I can tell you,
Your face will never leave my heart.
I will always see you in my dreams,
Even if the heaven's fall.
I have never dreamed,
Of anyone the way I dream of you;
And I have never cried,
Over anyone the way I cry over you.
Moments die as days go by,
But you will
You are the reason,
For all my suffering and pain.
You cause me torment,
Through one little name.
People try to blame me,
For all the things I do;
But the only one they should be blaming,
Could only be you.
I was an angel,
Before you touched my heart,
You have always hurt me;
Since the very start.
I was a child,
So who am I to blame?
What was your reason,
For causing me pain?
Though your words are crewl,
And the pain is not brief;
You can not change,
What I believe.
For I am an angel,
Even though you may not see,
I am an angel;
And your words can never change me!
I wish I could see behind the lies,
Into what truely lies inside.
Hidden by the prisoner's mask,
Wanting to be unvailed atlast.
I wish you could show me,
How you truely feel,
And take off that horrid mask,
That your heart wears as a veil.
I wish you could show me your true colors;
Your purples, blues and reds.
Maybe even your yellows and pinks,
If you can stand to bare yourself.
Uncovered and naked,
Standing before me;l
Uncovered and naked,
Showing all there is to see;
Uncovered and naked,
Thats how I wish you could be.
What do you want from me?
Am I just another helpless person for you to feed?
I've tried so hard,
To make you proud.
But all it seems to do,
Is make me drown.
Farther and deeper,
Into the darkness.
You tell me you love me,
And I know this is true;
But sometime when you speak,
I can't understand you.
I listen in silence,
For another clue;
But often I wonder if I'm ment to be with you.
Many times I sit in darkness,
Listening to the wind;
Hoping that somehow,
I could hear your voice again.
But for now I just waste away in darkness,
Waiting for another sign;
Waiting for you to show me,
When you will be by my side again.
Current Residence: Boise, ID/ Wenatchee, WA Favourite genre of music: Rock or country Favourite photographer: Anstle Adams (sp?) Favourite style of art: landscapes/ waterscapes MP3 player of choice: ipod Skin of choice: mine...? Favourite cartoon character: Cartman from South Park... (Respect my Authority!!!) Personal Quote: Small Minds talk about People, Average Minds talk about Events and Great Minds talk about Ideas
Favourite Movies
The Notebook
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Nickelback
Favourite Writers
Edger Allen Poe
Tools of the Trade
my camara, a peice of paper and a pen!
Other Interests
tennis, dancing, snowboarding, hanging with friends, taking pictures and writing poetry!
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would _______ for you. You should _______. Someday I will
______. You + me =________.
If I saw you now I'd __________. I want to ________ you. I
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So ya.. It's been a really long time since I've been on deviantart.com so I just thought I'd leave a little journal telling everyone what I've been up to in the last year :D
First, Well, about 3 months after Logan and I broke up (see previous journal) I started dating a guy named Phill. And him and I are currently engaged :D
Second, I graduated from Wenatchee High School this year HORRAY!!!
Third, I am currently attending Boise State University in Boise, Idaho. (As if the town needed to be named.. lol)
So thats about it for the main highlights. I hope to talk to you all soon. I look forward to seeing your new artwork
Love,
Michelle
So anyways... as you all know... Logan came up to visit me last weekend :party: So I thought.... it turned out that he only came up here to break up with me... :tear:
So ya.... anyways... The day after we broke up (the 18th) my friend Heather ends up going to the ER because of her back.. and I find out that Logan and Nikki (one of my best friends) are dating!!!!!!!!! :fork: CAN YOU SAY BACK STABBER????? I could.... I almost punched her in the face... and it would have been a great place to do it too... since we were at the hospital and everything... But her and I ended up making up :hug: so ya...
Next day: Her and I are supposed to hang